I used to trick myself
Into saying i was leaving
Used to trick myself
Into looking up to ghosts
I used to tell myself
That it wasn’t even living
If i was more than a memory
To the people back home..
I had myself convinced
I was a shark in the deep
Had myself believing
I would die if I sleep..
Told my friends that I
I could never be a tree
Putting roots in the ground
Was allergic to me
Maybe I could have touched the sky
With a different group on a different night
I could’ve been lost at sea
If I’d never been told ‘kid you need a plan B’
Maybe i would’ve jumped that train
On a different hill on a different day
Maybe these are just lies that I
I tell my heart
So i can sleep at night
Believing it’s not my fault
I used to sink myself
Into Kerouac schemes…
Put a mountain in my back
Like a rearview dream
I used to tell myself
That it wasn’t even living
If i was more than a memory
To the people I need.
Maybe I could have touched the sky
With a different group on a different night
I could’ve been lost at sea
If I’d never been told ‘kid you need a plan B’
Maybe i would’ve jumped that train
On a different hill on a different day
Maybe these are just lies that I
I tell my heart
So i can sleep at night
Believing it’s not my fault.
credits
from No Place in America,
released December 8, 2022
Written and performed by Swearwords
Produced and engineered by Steve Shirk @ Shirk Sound
St. Louis DIY stalwarts Shady Bug's latest EP is languid, low-key indie rock that combines warm dream pop tones with alt-rock crunch. Bandcamp New & Notable May 11, 2023